ayul. . hes a great guy. . fun to be wif. . but hes too kind. . hes to good to be wif a gurl like me. . he can find another better gurl wat. .i'm sorrie dear2 ayul. . well,went to a pub wif ika. . great la. . but the pub so bored sei. . drink like hell oso bored. . heex. . waste time go there. . hmmph. . started to receive many kenalans. . but nope. . no seriouc intention. . i treat ol of dem as frenz . .dere wont be a way i'm gonna find a new one .yah. . i contact back wif rab. . hahax. . i'm not a playgurl. . not even tryin to be one. . haish. . juz findin tings to do during my past time. . well maybe i tot dat rab is closer wif me den a.j. . thought i left ayul. . i didnt mean it in harsh la. . u noe. . i lurve clubbing. . pubs. . i'm a drinker. . whu ever cant accpet me the way i m den F.O is the only ting i can say la. . even i noe its fer my own gud. . i even want to change. . but its hard u noe. . heex. . nao i'm i dilemma !!! disana menanti disni menunggu. . hmmph. . wat i'm gonna do.. . i'm not gonna play wif their feelings. . they noe about each other la. . i mean i tell a.j about rab. . i tell rab about a.j. . hope they understand me n give me time. . i still havent starting to feel anyting wif dem sey. . i mean,i still cant forget abt the past. . abt ahling. . n oso feeling2 utk rab atao a.j blom ader la . . haish. . hmmph. . kae lorx. . goin out to meet rab. . later---

nana

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